Pep Talk

Dear Self,

I know this has been a long cycle, and that the PMS symptoms you've had for weeks are giving you false hope. I know this is frustrating and discouraging, but you are stronger than this. Don't let the stress of work, home repairs, family, friends, and TTC affect you in such a negative way.

You are blessed to have a good job, a house, a loving family, a few sweet friends, and an amazing husband. Your time will come in one way or another (I'm gonna find ya, I'm gonna getcha getcha..).

You are a strong, intelligent, compassionate, and beautiful woman. I know you don't ever feel like it, but it's true. You need to start seeing yourself for who you are.. not for how you look. Sure, you could lose a few (ok.. more than a few) pounds, but your weight does not define you. Your actions and your character define you. The way you choose to live your life, and the way you decide to treat others defines you. Get that in your head.

Now.. I would write more, but it is past our bedtime. Go to sleep so you can finish out this week rested.

Love,
You

 

#IguessImatease

Wow, it's been awhile..

I am now on CD48, and there is still no sign of O or AF (I think they ran away together). So I'm sitting here in limbo-land waiting for my yearly appointment on CD68. FX that something happens before then.. I would really prefer not to get back on Provera.

This month I am continuing to temp, check CM, and chart. I still need to order some Wondfos so I can continue testing, but I haven't felt motivated. Besides that, I am continuing to use Preseed (when needed), and taking my PNVs. They are actually getting easier to swallow.. thank goodness!

I placed a surprise order for DH recently, and it finally came in last week! It's so freaking cute.. I can't contain myself! I made sure to hide it in a place he that would never look. All I need now is a BFP :) 

       

   (sorry to be a tease.. I promise to post a picture after the announcement happens.)

In other news, it turns out my cousin and I are TTC at the same time! It's been so fun chatting about names, nurseries, and anything else baby related. We are very close in age, and grew up like sisters so this is really special for me. I'm hoping we both (somehow) get KU around the same time. That would be amazing! (even more amazing if she moved her sassy butt up here *winkwink*)

Other than that, things have been pretty ordinary. I'm just working my full time job, and trying to make my home business thrive. I have quite a bit of housework to do before the in-laws visit this Labor Day as well.

I guess I should get back to it.. I'll try to update more often than I have been. I hope you all are well :)